Alone...

I just reached home from college,  It was a terrible day. I was nt even interested to talk about it, But I guess It will be better if I do. So today it was a locker time and I was going to get my books which are locked inside. All of a sudden this girl named Daina comes up with me.
She looks gorgeous and likely she is the most popular girl in my class, She is also a girl like me. So has the nerves to say to my face,' Is it me or is there a ugly girl next to me'. I was about to smack her on her face but it didn't happen because our faculty was walking toward us and later a group of boys came to me and laughed at me.....
why???
..... Did I got such insulted by that damn girl or am I the only girl in class to look such *** to them???? 

Alone in Home...

Once a cold night in a winter. I was alone upstairs in my room. Mom left the home to an another place for two days. She was divorced and is an old drunken woman. I don't even know who the hell is my father, I am 18 years old now and never saw him till now at least in a photo.
It is just me and the time goes by really fast, Anyway back to my horrible life. This is the second time I'm fresher in a university and yes ur guess is correct i failed..!!
I was never good even in my school, Well so wat u gonna do about it now. I always hated to study since the first day i started. Did u understand I'm fed up, God I just hate my life. Sometimes I think of hanging my self and quit this damn life......
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well I'm sleepy, I have class in the morning. I'll write in u later...

continue........

Words by a Girl

When I was a teenager, I used to watch a lot of movies (I still do) and created an expectation of guys based on them.

Apparently, all of them had a common theme: The guy devotes himself to her and does everything she ever wants. Gives up everything for her. Makes her happy by sacrificing a lot of things as a means of showing love. That was also what a guy expects from a girl.

As I went through college, work, exploring my career and friendships, I understood one thing:

The expectation I created for myself was very wrong. I basically expected a co-dependent, clingy, insecure and needy person.

Truth is, I don’t want a co-dependent, clingy, insecure and needy person who wants me to sacrifice things dear to me to prove my love or to devote my time to him. I work a lot. I need a lot of “me” time. For me, career is important, and so are friends and deep connections with them. I need all these to be myself. And these, are exactly opposite of what I earlier expected from a partner.

Now, the expectation is simple: someone who treats me like the person I am.

I can’t speak for every woman, but for me, a man who is secure enough to let me be who I am is perfect.

An Anonymous Text

 He left me at the door leaving a text message,

“I’M LEAVING TO MY DAD’S PLACE .

I’LL BE BACK IN A WEEK

AND DO A FAVOR OF NOT BEING FOOD TO DANGER.

I LOVE YOU.

STAY SAFE.

I’LL MISS U….”

I replied

“I LOVE YOU TOO and

I’ll be waiting for you….”

The first day without him at school was strange. I felt I was an alien in the school. Things seemed different and new to me though I have been studying from 1 year. I missed him every second and when I pass through the places where we sit ,hangout our recess with our friends and when people ask me about his absence, it makes me miss him even more .

I keep scrolling down our pictures and re-read our conversations whenever I get free time .

After two days ….

I drove back to home from school and when I reached home, his car was parked in the parking space. My blood rushed through my veins making my heart beat race , I parked my car and ran into the home with all the enthusiasm of his presence , to hold and tell how much I missed him.

In return I find his car keys and the venue to which he wanted me to see me at 7 in the evening.

After reading the note ,

I lost in my thoughts for a while I remembered how much time I wasted . I took an hour to finish all my girly time .

I dressed up in his favorite bottle green knee length frock and a velvet necklace on my neck .



I drove to the place where the note took me , its a place of heaven. The lanterns guiding the path ,the fragrance of tulips and orchids making place a very pleasant one , the smell of water and the wet sand and cold weather making every second of time memorable and perfect.

He opened the door for me , his eyes met mine and we hugged each other out of happiness .

I whispered I LOVE YOU in his ears , he kissed me tenderly expressing his missing. He blindfolded me and lifted me in his arms, he let me on my feet when we reached the place. He unfolded the satin around my eyes to let me explore the place.

It was a wooden house with no doors and the white screens flying so beautifully, the candle lights and the calm waters enhancing elegance to the place .

He stood in blue shirt and black denims so handsome and perfect beside me .

“This is all I could make in a short period of time”, he whispered.
“It’s perfect”, I exclaimed.

“Well, this is my small surprise for you my love”, He said with a smile.

We walked a little distance in silence, then moved forward in silence leaving a few silent minutes where I was lost in my thoughts.

“IF I SAY HIS VOICE IS A WATERFALL OF AMBER IN WHICH I WOULD LOVE TO BURN EACH DAY,

IF HIS LIPS ARE LIKE A MYSTICAL ROSE WITH THE POWER OF HEALING

IF I CONFESS THAT HIS TOUCH IS THE ONLY CIVILISATION I LONG TO EXPERIENCE…..

WOULD IT MEAN THAT ARE WE CLOSE TO KNOWING SOMETHING DEEP IN LOVE??”

He taught me that one cannot take pleasure of being loved without giving love. Every gesture, every touch, every glance brings happiness to the person who knows how to wake up. Celebration of love should not part without admiring each other , without being conquered or being conquered.

I received a text from anonymous person

“Strange question to ask,

but really?

what is it ?

The feeling he has for you.

‘Cause love is a drug that can make a person do crimes in a trance of time……”
Though it is an anonymous text , it struck my brain ..

I went to the trance of thoughts..

“ Is this love?

But really does he feel the same as I feel for him?

Does he gets excited when he see me?

Does he mean losing every bit of himself just for me?

He told that he fell for me .. Now I ask myself, does he?

I know he cares about me, he thinks of me constantly, my high and low tides, I know he wants me to be around me and make me happy, but….

IS HIS FEELINGS FOR ME GENUINE OR AM I BEING PLAYED WORSE THAN CAM NEWTON IN THE SUPER BOWL…?

I just don’t know………..

The felling of fear has begun somewhere deep in the corner of my heart. The fear of loosing him. I’m scared that I will fall head over heals and there will be no one to catch me.

I’m scared that he might not feel the same way. I’m scared that he might leave me all alone and I don’t want that heartbreak and lay on bed weeping again. All I want is positives and none of the negatives . I want that ….. I need that ….. head over heels ….. but I’m no acrobat…

I sat with all the thoughts running on my mind with feet touching the calm waters……

Beautiful Illusion

next...LOVE….

A word that defines everything in life.It can be different for each person on how they feel when they see their loved one or even think of him/her.



Liking often gets into bad rap as it is commonly confused with lust.



When two people are happens to be in love, they enjoy every initial and small things and feelings. The desire to see each other , talk and spend time together ,learning all those details of eachother ,likes ,preferences,phobia,ups and downs and every inch of a person and as I felt every stage of fondness about him and concluded things to myself that I LOVE HIM COMPLETELY.



Things have changed ,this love is much deeper and infact much different.I always felt love as thing of beauty . The way I soothe yet full of passion similar to the emotions when I first saw him.



In my late night rants to myself and my constant mind wandering habits.I love the idea of being in love and I know how strongly I feel about every emotion anger,hurt,regret,happiness i feel it with everything inside of me. When I’m hurt,it’s like the walls are caving in like I can’t breathe ,time literally stops.When I’m happy ,there is the bright, yellow sunshine walking with me, I can feel the warmth and nothing can break my temperature.



It’s always about him that runs on my mind first and people tell it’s hard to find a true and pure love . Then I must be lucky to find such person.It is so beautiful with him.



He is my comfort during my hardest times, He is my champagne wen I’m on cloud 9. He is my every essence of existence.



Happiness,bad times and holidays whatever it is about , I find myself picking up phone to call him and talk all of it to him.



He gave me the feelings that I have never ever felt before.The connection between us is not something ordinary .He makes me feel wanted,needed and appreciated and it’s always breathtaking to feel such important to him.



The way he appreciates letting all his pride,ego,past away ,The way he makes his time for me , the crazy adventure he takes me ,the way he holds my hand ,teaching me something new .



The way he kisses me a million times , making surprise plans to my favourite places ,dances with me, make my every day special.



He has changed my life , has made me a better person ,the person who kisses my edges and loves all my roughness.



He looks at me like I’m magic .he adores all my imperfections it changed me.



He argues because he cares .He craves the more from me,



He never lets you get away with slacking on my talents.





THEY SAY WE SHOULD “APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS ,
BECAUSE THEY ARE THE ONLY THINGS THAT LASTS WITH US”.



I capture every small happy moment of us just to remind myself how lucky and thankful to god to find a person like you.



You take a really special place in my life my love, because



YOU ARE THE PERSON I THINK OF WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND LAST ONE WHEN I GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.



You impact so many things in my life ……



I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF THE HEART…….

THE MAN OF MY CONSTANT THOUGHT……

Yes….

I’m completely in love with him.I fell asleep to your whispers ,your every words got me deplore into my dreams of ecstacy.

I woke to the chirps of birds and he woke me up with his warm kiss on my forehead and muffled “I LOVE YOU”.I blush like an idiot whenever he said those three words

He made the coffee prepared for me while I finished my chores, as usual we ran to the woods where we met first .

We enjoyed each others company competeting each other and we dint know how much distance we ran and with in a few minutes of time we reached the cliff .

He pushed me into the water and followed me .

when my body touched the splurge of water and the bleakness of water rejuvenated my mind.

I reached his warm hands ,his touch makes me feel secured ,I felt myself around him .

He has found every letters that had slipped my mind

The words i wanted to create for you and I,

He has found ways to steal my stares and the smiles  i never captured ,

He whispered his love into my ears ,

filling aura with his words kissing every speck of my soul,

lifting my hope which brought me to your world.
He kissed me with all the passion of love he had for me.

I let him kiss my soul

 I no longer had the fear of swimming through the dark storms ,

knowing that he would be my light house guiding the shore of his arms.
After few seconds we parted our lips and we moved forward to the shore .

We stood with our bare feet sleeping in the sand as the waves came crashing in.

My mind has locked me in.

I have finally learnt to love?

My heart has finally feels safe as child feels when he is in his moms hands

nestled in his love so happily and safely.
He wrapped me in his warm t-shirt making sure that i might not fall sick.He covered himself in his sweatshirt and we ran back home where he kissed me again bading bye with his crooked smile on his face.

I  got dressed up . I was wearing ash coloured sweatshirts and black denim and i pulled my hair to a pony .winter has begun and the roads were wet due to snow fall.I always liked winter . I liked the wet and coldness

I locked my house and drove to school and I see at the parking lot standing next to his R8 waiting .

He was in his plain white shirt folded perfectly and his blue denims .His eyes are the only i always wanted look first . It was like i could look all his love in his eyes the minute he looks at me.He gave me a quick hug and we rushed to our classes .

We had few class in common where we used to give a cute stares at each other or may be sit with holding hand in hand


DAYS PASSED LIKE SECONDS

MONTHS PASSES LIKE DAYS
And as time passed by my love for him increased

He was the only thing that ran on my mind constantly

HE BECAME MY MAN OF CONSTANT THOUGHT…………